i dont want to fall asleep

sometimes i just dont want to fall asleep..
coz the gap between being awake and falling asleep gives me chance to think a lot about lots of things that i dont want to think about..

nitez,nda...

idealist vs insane person

according to thefreedictionary.com,

idealist:

1. One whose conduct is influenced by ideals that often conflict with practical considerations.
2. One who is unrealistic and impractical; a visionary.
3. An artist or writer whose work is imbued with idealism.
4. An adherent of any system of philosophical idealism.

insane:

adj.
1.
a. Of, exhibiting, or afflicted with insanity.
b. Characteristic of or associated with persons afflicted with insanity: an insane laugh; insane babbling.
c. Intended for use by such persons: an insane asylum.
2. Immoderate; wild: insane jealousy.
3. Very foolish; absurd: took insane risks behind the wheel.

absurd
adj.
1. Ridiculously incongruous or unreasonable. See Synonyms at foolish.
2. Of, relating to, or manifesting the view that there is no order or value in human life or in the universe.
3. Of or relating to absurdism or the absurd.

Somehow I feel that there's a gray area between being an idealist and being insane.
I THOUGHT i was an idealist, but I thought an idealist can still work realistically,coz what's the point of ebing idealist if you don't know that it can work out?

but,I'm surprised by the definition given by thefreedictionary.com,unrealistic and impractical?am I like that?or I'm just someone without vision that thinks BIG but no philosophy beyond??

am I too naive?
I always compare it to how my mom nvr said that studying in spore is impossible..
it was impossible for me..it looks like sth up there..
but God enabled me to achieve it..

so if even now many ppl say,we can't do this...
am I too insane to say that there's a way to achieve more than this??
why do we always see other people can do better than us but we are stuck here??
is it a mentality problem or am I just insane and unrealistic??

mailing list vs facebook

This is just a random thought,an accumulation of an anger of how many people have been missing from the EARTH since they left Singapore..How many people have been missing for our community's mailing list,but they seem quite active on facebook (which requires more time to load with Indonesia's internet connection).

I thought internet is supposed to ease communication among people. Sometimes I'm not patient to wait for reply because I'm too used to free and accessible internet here in Singapore (except now there's no wireless connection in A block lounge). However, I'm so pissed off when people just disappear and say "ohh sorry...very hard to access internet here" but they still can access facebook weekly!!

It's also ironic because the things that my friends post on mailing list are more important than just a status "ohhh...terrible exam questions" or comment on a photo "ah really?but we are siblings..that's why she resembles me"..and please...the post on the mailing list really asks the members "What do you think of...?" "Can someone help...?" I think it requires more urgent reply than a photo on a facebook album.

I'm not anti-facebook or twitter or anything :)
I'm just a person who is annoyed by the people who are just missing,who have never replied email,and make "no internet connection" as an excuse. *disclaimer: no offend for people who really can't access internet,I had the same experience..this post is only used for WAKING UP people who are too overwhelmed by social networking sites AND neglecting their responsibility. again,if you are social networking sites-addict but you are still responsible,don't feel offended*

when u don't know what to do

it's a bit weird when u feel weird not doing anything..hahaha..
no football match today
i think i've wasted my time. I called some companies today,but there was no significant result. I took a nap for 2hours, rushing to University Hall to drop the documents for bursary application (yeah..today is the last day of application)

so ya..nothing much today..except had a nice durian party with Paul and Carina. Prashanti became the victim and Krizia only tried one.

hahahaha

oh no...what to do now..lazy to do anything..hahahaha..

durian lalalala

I had durian party aft Legion meeting today..
niceeeeeeeee..
hahaha

i feel so full...:) :)

will eat more durian in Indo..hahahaha

makin diomongin,makin....

ceritanya begini..
ada satu makhluk..
matanya dua dan hidungnya satu..

Mkahluk ini lucu,tetapi tidak imut
baik,tapi tidak yang gimanaaaaaaaa gitu..

terus terus
ya sudah...gitu "doank" kak
teman yang menyenangkan

lalu makhluk ini pergi..hilang "wush" dibawa sang angin
jadi ya sudah..dadahhh makhluk lucu..

anehnya,
mulai..mulai..ada percikan-percikan aneh..
saat membaca celoteh makhluk ini
dan membayangkan jika memang pertemuan akan terjadi kembali

haduh haduh....

home

it is a surprise,
it is a miracle.

I thought I can only go home in recess week,then suddenly my employee told me that I only need to work 16hours/week this month..sooooooooooo...it came to my mind,"home-home-home". I asked HR,she said it's ok to take a week off,as long as every week maximum 16hours.

lalalalala...

that day,i called my mom,i bought my ticket.

Well,i can say that i use my internship savings for ticket singapore-bali..*even though i used credit card and the bill went to my parents,hehehe* but I do feel very excited to go home..

Thank God... ^^