in the midst of the super-mix feelings!! I love NUANSA'10:This Earth of Mankind :)

this is my 2nd attempt to express my mixed feelings,(still) excited, (still) nervous (coz the post-prod admin stuff,hahaha),n mellow feeling..how I miss the rehearsals and meetings..One thing that I can't stop doing is to say "thank you-thank you-thank you". This morning, when I went for mass,I just couldn't stop saying Thanks to the Lord. It's been a long journey, one year and 'suddenly' last nite came..

3pm show: I was SUPERNERVOUS!!!
so during intermission, when people started giving good comments, I was still like,"woww..really?" coz when I watched the performance itself,the thing that I couldn't stop saying is,"wow..how EACH person really gave 200%"

8pm show: slightly less nervous..
but sitting with the VIPs really made me worried..fyi,the dean and Head of student life couldn't believe that ALL OF US who were on the stage (and off-the-stage) are STUDENTS..

the most overwhelming part was after curtain call..when I saw the whole people on stall level standing after our shows (I didn't dare to say it was a standing ovation),I was like "wow.." and we screamed, we hugged each other..i dunno somehow I got a feeling,it's not only a good musical that makes us hugging each other,but the whole journey as a family..we might not even feel the bonding during the process,but after the show,then we realized,,"oh shit..i'm gonna miss this person,that person,this moment,that moment" and we were just amazed how we have journeyed together in this one whole year..

I read the cards on the board given by the performers+crews,and the thing that made me relieve is we do have sense of belonging on NUANSA'10, we do learn a lot, and we do make new friendship..and whatever happen after NUANSA,(I don't manage to meet up with the dancers of NUANSA'09),we believe that nothing can erase this memory and this bond..and the most surprising thing is,it's the little thing that made the journey beautiful..

eg I am always amazed by how Wilson dedicated his 24hours foR NUANSA'10,and I can't stop looking back from 1 year,since we chose the stories,brainstormed,did rehearsals,the time I spent crying and laughing with my friends,and I've just realized,I NEVER cried or laughed alone..My family,my Legionaries friend, my fellow comm and performers, somehow they're always with me..

people asked me aft the show,"relieved? u must be very tired.."
but to be honest,I couldn't feel tired yesterday :P fri nite I slept at 1am,and I was already awake at 6.30am saturday morning,and I was so hyper yesterday :P I was not that relieved,coz there are just too much feelings now...when I had supper with Oz yesterday,we were still amazed on how EACH of us has grown up for this 1year..it's not only about using and developing the talent,but also growing up in terms of personality,how we handle problems,how we relate with each other..

NUANSA'10 is a self-discovery journey for me..it's not a smooth journey..I've learned about my own strength and weaknesses, I've learned about friendship,and not to judge people.. and every single person in the comm really left me with a strong impression..eg even though I rarely talked to some sets people, when I watched their cute videos,hahaha, or their photos, I remembered the member's expression every time they worked or had meeting..
The musicians, I also rarely talked to some of them,esp.KG and Revata..but still, their smile during MIDNITE PRACTICES!! still linger in my mind..
The cast's great performance, I also couldn't stop remembering funny things that they've been doing..hahahaha..

but I must admit,the last 2weeks were the most memorable ones..the last 3days were the most touching experience..

keep in touch,friends!!

Remember only the happiness..love you all!!thanks for being soooo patient of my 'scolding' moments combined with 'super-loud-laughter'moments..
addition: bring the problems as life-lessons for any other experience in the future :P (esp.for Dinda and Bill, the next PD-VPD of NUANSA'11)

Thank you,Lord.
Thank you for Our Lady for your powerful intercession..