I can't help not to write this post! Hahaha..
This Thursday I'll be witness for my friend for registration of marriage. They're my close friends, as in, the girl is one year older than me and the guy is my senior 2 years university year older than me. Their wedding will still be held next year, so even after Thursday's ROM I will still count them as 'engaged', hahaha, but still..I'm so excited!!!
Furthermore, just now my friend (Thanks to Dennyz for ur post) mentioned about "axioo" new fee. It's a wedding photography company. Hahaha. Four of us like to watch their clips or just browse the wedding photos on that blog (despite the fact that only Nyz already has boyfriend :P). I dunno...these comments just make me knock my head and remind me that I'm 21. It was sooo fun in high school. Look at guy A and scream (on phone lah, not in front of the guy), "Kyaaa. So nice, so cute, or so and so..." Now our conversation once in every semester is like this, "Ok girls, time to update." Most of us will say: "Guy A is bla bla bla, BUT...." "I like guy B, BUT ..." or "Hmmm..see how..nothing's special.." this "BUT" is an indicator that we are in real world, not in Disney movies. Unconsciously (or consciously), as we grow up, when we discuss about guys, we project the 'ideal' as future 'husband' (not only as boyfriend, my goodness, it's weird to write 'husband'). It doesn't mean that we want to look for a perfect guy, but we are much more careful than when we were in high school. We do talk about stuff that we foresee will be 'obstacles'.
This matter is even more interesting when we start talking about vocation. I used to think that when you say 'vocation', it means a calling to be a religious (nun, priest, etc), but when I attended vocational retreat in high school, I realized that marriage is also a vocation and that everyone is called to be holy, whether you are a religious, married, or lay-person with celibacy state. Hence, while my mom is always telling me to pray that when I like a guy, "God show me whether he's for me or not", I 'secretly' pray about the possibility of 'other' vocation too.. I mean, you never know right? We might be called for other paths.
My principle is "never say no or it's not possible" coz I know that some priests told us in homily that they were used to be bad boys too! hahaha, yet they were called too. At the same time, I guess I need to admit that it's very hard to say "yes" too. People do ask questions, I ask questions too.
Have you ever wondered why does God give some 'feelings' for us to some guys with whom relationships seem impossible? Or perhaps, the case is the reversed. Some friends were 'chased' by some super-persistent guys whom they really don't love (or don't love anymore). I told my mom that "I'm still young, can we please not talk about this?" (I won't say that she's chasing me to get boyfriend, but she's just worried that I study too much! HAHAHAHA), but to be honest, I think soon the pressure will be coming. Well, it's not only about pressure, but as you grow up (and especially if you stay alone somewhere out there), there are moments when you wanna have someone's special next to you. Somehow me and my friends start to feel 'trapped' in weird relationships that we never had before when we were high school. Things like you feel close with a guy, you go out together quite frequently (two of you!!), you expect more, but he doesn't. Initially we feel hurt, then after we get over it and move on, we've realized that it's just a part of life and 'wait' for another one to catch our eyes. HAHAHAHA..
My mom sometimes scolds me because I always tell her (not always, sometimes...) that "No mom, it's impossible" at the early stage of 'start-liking-someone'. Sometimes it's quite tiring to like (love?) someone, feels close, and "woosssh" the person just disappeared and you know that you are NOTHING..literally nothing.. But at the same time, you miss the feeling to love someone, do crazy little things for him to 'hint' him, hahaha, or just to make him happy :):) Especially once you reach a point when you don't care about yourself anymore and just want the best for him, wahhh..that's a very beautiful feeling coz you are even ready to let him go at this point.
For my best-friends, Nic, Pril, Nyz... This post is dedicated for four of us, have I summarized our most-favorite-topic-since-primary-school-till-now? Hahahaha.. Miss you all!! :):)
For Pril, who's somehow-always-at-similar-situation-with me, I haven't heard any updates from you! :P
For Nyz, happy saving for axioo! HAHAHAHA :) ps. you are going to work soon!
For Nic, hmm, I've said what I wanted to say in my SMS :)
This Thursday I'll be witness for my friend for registration of marriage. They're my close friends, as in, the girl is one year older than me and the guy is my senior 2 years university year older than me. Their wedding will still be held next year, so even after Thursday's ROM I will still count them as 'engaged', hahaha, but still..I'm so excited!!!
Furthermore, just now my friend (Thanks to Dennyz for ur post) mentioned about "axioo" new fee. It's a wedding photography company. Hahaha. Four of us like to watch their clips or just browse the wedding photos on that blog (despite the fact that only Nyz already has boyfriend :P). I dunno...these comments just make me knock my head and remind me that I'm 21. It was sooo fun in high school. Look at guy A and scream (on phone lah, not in front of the guy), "Kyaaa. So nice, so cute, or so and so..." Now our conversation once in every semester is like this, "Ok girls, time to update." Most of us will say: "Guy A is bla bla bla, BUT...." "I like guy B, BUT ..." or "Hmmm..see how..nothing's special.." this "BUT" is an indicator that we are in real world, not in Disney movies. Unconsciously (or consciously), as we grow up, when we discuss about guys, we project the 'ideal' as future 'husband' (not only as boyfriend, my goodness, it's weird to write 'husband'). It doesn't mean that we want to look for a perfect guy, but we are much more careful than when we were in high school. We do talk about stuff that we foresee will be 'obstacles'.
This matter is even more interesting when we start talking about vocation. I used to think that when you say 'vocation', it means a calling to be a religious (nun, priest, etc), but when I attended vocational retreat in high school, I realized that marriage is also a vocation and that everyone is called to be holy, whether you are a religious, married, or lay-person with celibacy state. Hence, while my mom is always telling me to pray that when I like a guy, "God show me whether he's for me or not", I 'secretly' pray about the possibility of 'other' vocation too.. I mean, you never know right? We might be called for other paths.
My principle is "never say no or it's not possible" coz I know that some priests told us in homily that they were used to be bad boys too! hahaha, yet they were called too. At the same time, I guess I need to admit that it's very hard to say "yes" too. People do ask questions, I ask questions too.
Have you ever wondered why does God give some 'feelings' for us to some guys with whom relationships seem impossible? Or perhaps, the case is the reversed. Some friends were 'chased' by some super-persistent guys whom they really don't love (or don't love anymore). I told my mom that "I'm still young, can we please not talk about this?" (I won't say that she's chasing me to get boyfriend, but she's just worried that I study too much! HAHAHAHA), but to be honest, I think soon the pressure will be coming. Well, it's not only about pressure, but as you grow up (and especially if you stay alone somewhere out there), there are moments when you wanna have someone's special next to you. Somehow me and my friends start to feel 'trapped' in weird relationships that we never had before when we were high school. Things like you feel close with a guy, you go out together quite frequently (two of you!!), you expect more, but he doesn't. Initially we feel hurt, then after we get over it and move on, we've realized that it's just a part of life and 'wait' for another one to catch our eyes. HAHAHAHA..
My mom sometimes scolds me because I always tell her (not always, sometimes...) that "No mom, it's impossible" at the early stage of 'start-liking-someone'. Sometimes it's quite tiring to like (love?) someone, feels close, and "woosssh" the person just disappeared and you know that you are NOTHING..literally nothing.. But at the same time, you miss the feeling to love someone, do crazy little things for him to 'hint' him, hahaha, or just to make him happy :):) Especially once you reach a point when you don't care about yourself anymore and just want the best for him, wahhh..that's a very beautiful feeling coz you are even ready to let him go at this point.
For my best-friends, Nic, Pril, Nyz... This post is dedicated for four of us, have I summarized our most-favorite-topic-since-primary-school-till-now? Hahahaha.. Miss you all!! :):)
For Pril, who's somehow-always-at-similar-situation-with me, I haven't heard any updates from you! :P
For Nyz, happy saving for axioo! HAHAHAHA :) ps. you are going to work soon!
For Nic, hmm, I've said what I wanted to say in my SMS :)
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