2000 words of Indonesian essay

it's tough!!
how weird it is to feel weird when you write in your own language!!
arrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh

assuming my blog is facebook wall,
let's omit the subject
.... is considering to be educational psychologist.

Just yesterday I told Krizia that I'm confused on what I should study for Master's and what I really want to be in the future. I always think that I want to be a therapist for autistic children or clinical psychologist or things like working in hospital setting. However, my exposure to research papers on language (and the fact that my supervisor is the program director of speech therapy program) makes me re-think again on what I really want to do, what I really want to be, what I am called to do.

this morning,in the middle of the feeling of being pressed by tons of rocks on my head (I was super nervous for my presentation!!), I (still) had time to open my university-wish-list and the programs that they offer.

I think now I realize why I didn't consider educational psychologist or speech therapist before. Despite the fact that I was still innocent when I chose psychology, I was trapped in the people's mind of 'psychologist as psychologist only when you are a clinical psychologist'. I was also scared that I didn't have 'clear-cut' job if I do not become a clinician.

However, now I realize...I already throw those stereotypes of "science-students-go-to-engin-or-medicine" by choosing psychology..and now I realize, my real principle is, "Whatever my call is,let it be." It doesn't mean that I only sit and wait for 'enlightenment'. I will find out more, but I do not need to worry about job or salary or anything. Is it what God calls me to do? I think that's the most important question.

So....if now I feel the excitement of doing research on psycholinguistics.. if I realize that I might not that interested to learn about mood disorder.. if I now that I do not only like to deal with therapies and intervention, but also decision-making and policies, I should keep opening my eyes and mind..I'm considering educational psychologist or more research on developmental psychology, esp developmental disorder..

and PRAY-PRAY-PRAY!!!! :):)

*i think i'll be more talkative during this period of time..studying needs peace of mind and writing gives you chance to release what is stuck in your head :P*