I feel 'small'....

I feel ‘small’.....


5 July 2011

Yesterday I did some research on postgraduate application and I looked at “Referee’s Report Questionnaire”. I suddenly felt that I didn’t have enough capacity to apply for postgraduate application. Just now I was trying to write a personal statement and I felt that my personal statement sounded so childish. It sounded like answering a question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” with an answer, “I want to be a teacher because I like children.”

Sometimes I do not understand how to answer ‘general plan in the future’. I thought if you want to apply for master in clinical psychology that the direct answer is ‘to be a clinical psychologist’. Sometimes I feel scared, what their reaction will be if I say that I want to be a therapist? Being a therapist doesn’t need clinical degree, right? So I wrote something that was a crazy dream for me: to be a lecturer in Indo! Hehehehe. I’ve never thought of being a prof before, I think only in my second year I kept this thought in my mind.

I have lots of dreams in my mind! I dunno how to convince ‘them’ that I really want this, I really want to pursue the clinical degree, that even though I did tell myself that being a therapist doesn’t need clinical degree, but I want to have my own clinical practice too. Is it possible to write “I want to be a therapist AND set up my own private practice?”

Jiayou, Ferninda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!