This title makes me feel "old", but no way, I always feel young. Hahaha. The tricky part is, while I could laugh at people last year and said that I was "twenteen", this year there is no way I can say that I am "twenteen one". Hahaha. I'm quite excited because 21 years old is a legal age in Singapore, so that I don't need to ask my roommate to sign indemnity form for me in simple thing such as field trip or dance camp.
However, despite the first exciting moments of "Yes now I can enter casino" or "Yes now I can sign any forms myself", those two digits have really reminded me that I will have greater responsibility this year. Moreover, I'll be graduating next year and it feels like whatever decision that I make will affect my future sooooooooo much. Furthermore, I can't think of any decision only for myself. Nowadays I start thinking of my parents too. Financially soon I cannot depend on my parents. In terms of social expectation, soon when we start receiving wedding invitation from my neighbors who are only 3-4 years older than me, my mom will ask whether 'I like anyone' or 'I'm close with anyone'. Last year when I answered, "Mom, I'm only 20, no need to worry", my mom replied, "Yeah..but in the village, women at your age already have 4 children and time flies!!" Yah...time flies...
Being 21 years old and having this status : FINAL YEAR also means that I can't just "dream" and "wooosh" then things will happen. Now, postgraduate study and/or having a job is an urgency and I DO need deadline. My friends have started attending recruitment talks. While I always talk to other people that I wanna go postgrad study, I haven't done any concrete actions to write research proposal and fill in application form.
Haizzz...the first three weeks of school have been depressing. Not that I'm sad, I'm happy, 100% happy because I love my modules and the absence of hall activities make me able to sleep early. I've realized that having enough sleep makes me awake throughout classes. However, I am still very disorganized and I do not have enough motivation to consistently read the materials.
Every day is always a new day. Now that I'm still in the mood of "Yeay I'm 21", it's good to use this momentum to start all over again. Pray more, be more organized, and oops...can you pray for my dad? I'm looking forward to seeing him baptized. That'll be a wonderful bday gift and I hope I don't need to wait till I'm 30 to see him baptized.
Ohhh ohhh....I'm very happy because on my bday, my dad sent me SMS: "Happy bday. Dad loves you." kyaaaa.. He never sent 'more than 3 words' SMS before :P There's another funny SMS. After saying "Happy bday", at the end of the day, my mom messaged me, "Da, you are 21??tsk tsk tsk..you've grown up," as if my own mom was also shocked that her daughter is 21 now. hahahaha. My brother was also the first person who said "happy bday" (this is also a rare occasion), even though his bday wishes are like these: "Happy bday ugly sister, hope you get lots of money and gain more weight." Anyway, yah..that's how we joke with each other.
Thank God for always being there for me.
Thank you Mother Mary for hugging me, especially when I feel lonely :)
However, despite the first exciting moments of "Yes now I can enter casino" or "Yes now I can sign any forms myself", those two digits have really reminded me that I will have greater responsibility this year. Moreover, I'll be graduating next year and it feels like whatever decision that I make will affect my future sooooooooo much. Furthermore, I can't think of any decision only for myself. Nowadays I start thinking of my parents too. Financially soon I cannot depend on my parents. In terms of social expectation, soon when we start receiving wedding invitation from my neighbors who are only 3-4 years older than me, my mom will ask whether 'I like anyone' or 'I'm close with anyone'. Last year when I answered, "Mom, I'm only 20, no need to worry", my mom replied, "Yeah..but in the village, women at your age already have 4 children and time flies!!" Yah...time flies...
Being 21 years old and having this status : FINAL YEAR also means that I can't just "dream" and "wooosh" then things will happen. Now, postgraduate study and/or having a job is an urgency and I DO need deadline. My friends have started attending recruitment talks. While I always talk to other people that I wanna go postgrad study, I haven't done any concrete actions to write research proposal and fill in application form.
Haizzz...the first three weeks of school have been depressing. Not that I'm sad, I'm happy, 100% happy because I love my modules and the absence of hall activities make me able to sleep early. I've realized that having enough sleep makes me awake throughout classes. However, I am still very disorganized and I do not have enough motivation to consistently read the materials.
Every day is always a new day. Now that I'm still in the mood of "Yeay I'm 21", it's good to use this momentum to start all over again. Pray more, be more organized, and oops...can you pray for my dad? I'm looking forward to seeing him baptized. That'll be a wonderful bday gift and I hope I don't need to wait till I'm 30 to see him baptized.
Ohhh ohhh....I'm very happy because on my bday, my dad sent me SMS: "Happy bday. Dad loves you." kyaaaa.. He never sent 'more than 3 words' SMS before :P There's another funny SMS. After saying "Happy bday", at the end of the day, my mom messaged me, "Da, you are 21??tsk tsk tsk..you've grown up," as if my own mom was also shocked that her daughter is 21 now. hahahaha. My brother was also the first person who said "happy bday" (this is also a rare occasion), even though his bday wishes are like these: "Happy bday ugly sister, hope you get lots of money and gain more weight." Anyway, yah..that's how we joke with each other.
Thank God for always being there for me.
Thank you Mother Mary for hugging me, especially when I feel lonely :)
fernindaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa maap yah aku lupa ulang tahunmu :(( SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN FERNINDA <3 semoga sehat sukses baik cita dan cintanya yaaaah :D
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