Somehow it's very hard to write about present. The tortoise (or turtle?) in Kungfu Panda said, "Yesterday was history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called present." Somehow I realize that it becomes harder to live in the present these days.
I don't know why, but I've spent more time regretting about my past. 'Past' does not refer to 3 years ago, 5 years ago, or months ago. My 'Past' refers to yesterday? Or perhaps last week? How I wish I could have done A to Z. I've also spent more time thinking about the future. A question "What if..." keeps coming to my mind. Now I start to alarm myself, "Hey, let's go back to the present."
Disclaimer: I'm not emo-ing. Hahahaha.
It's just that I feel that it's really a challenge for me to set target and do my work these days. Well, Thank God yesterday was a productive day for me. I managed to read for my module, Reading Visual Images. Thank God that He helped me to spare time to read some journal articles for my thesis. However, in general, I still feel that I'm not here nor there. I'm sort of in the state of "What-if-I-made-a-wrong-decision-but-if-I-didn't-do-anything-I-wouldn't-get-anything" (wahh..so long!)
Well, today was a great day :) Thank God for the time with Legion friends :)
I don't know why, but I've spent more time regretting about my past. 'Past' does not refer to 3 years ago, 5 years ago, or months ago. My 'Past' refers to yesterday? Or perhaps last week? How I wish I could have done A to Z. I've also spent more time thinking about the future. A question "What if..." keeps coming to my mind. Now I start to alarm myself, "Hey, let's go back to the present."
Disclaimer: I'm not emo-ing. Hahahaha.
It's just that I feel that it's really a challenge for me to set target and do my work these days. Well, Thank God yesterday was a productive day for me. I managed to read for my module, Reading Visual Images. Thank God that He helped me to spare time to read some journal articles for my thesis. However, in general, I still feel that I'm not here nor there. I'm sort of in the state of "What-if-I-made-a-wrong-decision-but-if-I-didn't-do-anything-I-wouldn't-get-anything" (wahh..so long!)
Well, today was a great day :) Thank God for the time with Legion friends :)
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