Today was my last exam as an undergraduate. I left exam hall at 10.15am (45 minutes earlier). Many people left early too. The format was MCQ, either you can remember or not. -.- I was not sure for most of the questions :(, but it's over!! O.V.E.R. - nomoreexamstillatleast1.5yearsfromnow :P
It's kinda a good feeling. I started to look back on the past years. I went out with roommate to JCube, the new mall in Jurong East, then we recalled our first few days in Eusoff. I remember how I was staring at the unending stairs in Eusoff with my HUGE suitcase and asked Jit Vern, my senior, "No lift?" No... I remember how I walked around Eusoff for the first time and tried to use the transponder to open my door, but I couldn't! It turned out to be the wrong room, it wasn't my room. Hahaha.
So fast!
I keep repeating this over and over again. Time flies. The question is "What's next??"
One problem that is quite persistent is my "over-worry". Among this "over-worry" lists, some that I really want to get rid of are:
1. Stop thinking about what-other-people-think-about-your-decision
2. Stop worrying that it-will-be-a-waste-of-time-if-I-make-wrong-decision
I just called my dad, telling him that I'll start work on 15 May, but I told him, "I don't know the salary yet!" But my dad 'scolded' me, not a harsh scolding, but firmly say, "Don't think about the salary! Get experience first!" This made me fly back to my conversation on phone with my mom last semester. She always says, "Nothing is wasted. You might turn and turn around so many times till you reach your destination, but nothing will be wasted."
What's next?
After many long posts on my 'BIG' dreams, I've decided to work.
After many long posts about my AMBITIONS, now if people ask me, "Do you really want to do clinical psychology?" I answer, "I don't know."
Do you know that hourly fee for tutoring JC student is higher than giving behavioral therapy?
But life is not only about money. I know I will really need to learn to survive after graduation. It's a shame to keep asking my parents for money. I also see and experience myself the ethical dilemma about some issues, "Is it appropriate for me to do this? Do I have the capacity to do this? Is it the best interest of the child/ client/ whoever the person's involved in my work?" I'll need to make 'BIG' decision myself, but yeah...Thank God I have people around me that can be asked for advice. I need to learn how to always improve my spiritual life too. At the end of the day, after circle, or meditation, or spiritual direction, they always remind me, "Remember. We are called to be holy and to glorify God." That's the most important thing.
Welcome new life :):)
for now,
PACKING MY STUFF AND BE PREPARED TO SHIFT TO VACATION STAY ROOM. aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...such a nightmare :(
It's kinda a good feeling. I started to look back on the past years. I went out with roommate to JCube, the new mall in Jurong East, then we recalled our first few days in Eusoff. I remember how I was staring at the unending stairs in Eusoff with my HUGE suitcase and asked Jit Vern, my senior, "No lift?" No... I remember how I walked around Eusoff for the first time and tried to use the transponder to open my door, but I couldn't! It turned out to be the wrong room, it wasn't my room. Hahaha.
So fast!
I keep repeating this over and over again. Time flies. The question is "What's next??"
One problem that is quite persistent is my "over-worry". Among this "over-worry" lists, some that I really want to get rid of are:
1. Stop thinking about what-other-people-think-about-your-decision
2. Stop worrying that it-will-be-a-waste-of-time-if-I-make-wrong-decision
I just called my dad, telling him that I'll start work on 15 May, but I told him, "I don't know the salary yet!" But my dad 'scolded' me, not a harsh scolding, but firmly say, "Don't think about the salary! Get experience first!" This made me fly back to my conversation on phone with my mom last semester. She always says, "Nothing is wasted. You might turn and turn around so many times till you reach your destination, but nothing will be wasted."
What's next?
After many long posts on my 'BIG' dreams, I've decided to work.
After many long posts about my AMBITIONS, now if people ask me, "Do you really want to do clinical psychology?" I answer, "I don't know."
Do you know that hourly fee for tutoring JC student is higher than giving behavioral therapy?
But life is not only about money. I know I will really need to learn to survive after graduation. It's a shame to keep asking my parents for money. I also see and experience myself the ethical dilemma about some issues, "Is it appropriate for me to do this? Do I have the capacity to do this? Is it the best interest of the child/ client/ whoever the person's involved in my work?" I'll need to make 'BIG' decision myself, but yeah...Thank God I have people around me that can be asked for advice. I need to learn how to always improve my spiritual life too. At the end of the day, after circle, or meditation, or spiritual direction, they always remind me, "Remember. We are called to be holy and to glorify God." That's the most important thing.
Welcome new life :):)
for now,
PACKING MY STUFF AND BE PREPARED TO SHIFT TO VACATION STAY ROOM. aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...such a nightmare :(
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