Well, I didn't realize that I had this problem until about 3-4 weeks ago, I talked to my spiritual director about my bad habit of "being-defensive-when-someone-corrected-me". Fr said, "It is called pride." My mom also has mentioned a few times that I will never want to be in the wrong position.
I found it very difficult to acknowledge my mistake. My first reaction will be "a-typical-unhappy-face". Secondly, I will try to find excuses (this one also I just realized about it). Until now, I find it very difficult to accept my mistakes, to accept my defects, and to say sorry 'easily' and just move on.
For now, every time I fall again to this thing called pride, I try to ask God to lift me up and I try to see myself as a little kid. I need help and it's okay to fall and let God help me to get up.
Below is a quotation from The Furrow that struck me:
Allow me to remind you that among other evident signs of a lack of humility are:
—Thinking that what you do or say is better than what others do or say;
—Always wanting to get your own way;
—Arguing when you are not right or — when you are — insisting stubbornly or with bad manners;
—Giving your opinion without being asked for it, when charity does not demand you to do so;
—Despising the point of view of others;
—Not being aware that all the gifts and qualities you have are on loan;
—Not acknowledging that you are unworthy of all honour or esteem, even the ground you are treading on or the things you own;
—Mentioning yourself as an example in conversation;
—Speaking badly about yourself, so that they may form a good opinion of you, or contradict you;
—Making excuses when rebuked;
—Hiding some humiliating faults from your director, so that he may not lose the good opinion he has of you;
—Hearing praise with satisfaction, or being glad that others have spoken well of you;
—Being hurt that others are held in greater esteem than you;
—Refusing to carry out menial tasks;
—Seeking or wanting to be singled out;
—Letting drop words of self-praise in conversation, or words that might show your honesty, your wit or skill, your professional prestige...;
—Being ashamed of not having certain possessions...
( http://www.escrivaworks.org/book/furrow-point-263.htm)
Have a blessed Sunday! :)
I found it very difficult to acknowledge my mistake. My first reaction will be "a-typical-unhappy-face". Secondly, I will try to find excuses (this one also I just realized about it). Until now, I find it very difficult to accept my mistakes, to accept my defects, and to say sorry 'easily' and just move on.
For now, every time I fall again to this thing called pride, I try to ask God to lift me up and I try to see myself as a little kid. I need help and it's okay to fall and let God help me to get up.
Below is a quotation from The Furrow that struck me:
Allow me to remind you that among other evident signs of a lack of humility are:
—Thinking that what you do or say is better than what others do or say;
—Always wanting to get your own way;
—Arguing when you are not right or — when you are — insisting stubbornly or with bad manners;
—Giving your opinion without being asked for it, when charity does not demand you to do so;
—Despising the point of view of others;
—Not being aware that all the gifts and qualities you have are on loan;
—Not acknowledging that you are unworthy of all honour or esteem, even the ground you are treading on or the things you own;
—Mentioning yourself as an example in conversation;
—Speaking badly about yourself, so that they may form a good opinion of you, or contradict you;
—Making excuses when rebuked;
—Hiding some humiliating faults from your director, so that he may not lose the good opinion he has of you;
—Hearing praise with satisfaction, or being glad that others have spoken well of you;
—Being hurt that others are held in greater esteem than you;
—Refusing to carry out menial tasks;
—Seeking or wanting to be singled out;
—Letting drop words of self-praise in conversation, or words that might show your honesty, your wit or skill, your professional prestige...;
—Being ashamed of not having certain possessions...
( http://www.escrivaworks.org/book/furrow-point-263.htm)
Have a blessed Sunday! :)
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