Farewell In Heaven - OST Love Letter

when I didn't know the meaning of the song, I already felt sad every time I listened to the song. After I found the meaning, I realized that the lyrics truly showed sadness. Hikzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... I used to feel bored when I watched Endless Love, then when I watched this drama, Love Letter (a few years ago), I felt that it's very beautiful. They didn't need to speak so many words to show their emotion. It's so sweet!!! and also sad.... hwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........

btw,just to clarify,this Love Letter that I am talking about is the one about Eun Ha and Lee Woo Jin. I think there's another version of Love Letter. hahaha.. Why Love Letter? Coz Eun Ha wrote a love letter,at the end she didn't give coz before she gave,Woo Jin confessed that he wanted to be a priest. Then,another Woo Jin,which is Jung Woo Jin, found the letter.It's not all about letter,but yeah..I recommend this drama :)

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Farewell In Heaven-Tri-Be

I hid my love in my tears
I'll let you go right here
Right here on this path
That made your heart be in pain


As if the world was going to end unexpectedly,
I loved you like it was the last, each day


*You're my life Feel my love
Even if you're not by my side
I'll keep your heart with me forever
Dont say bye let me go
Take all of the memories of me in you
and comfortably turn away
Even if its you, go forever..


Your embrace that always was open to me
Was a type of heaven that I could never go to
I never knew that you were getting tired
by this love that could never happen


The sudden separation will make us grieve
Because we cant ever see each other again..


repeat *


I'll let you rest now
You must've been tired from being with me all the time


You're my life Feel my love
Even if Im letting you go
I'll protect the memories that will never happen ever again
Dont say bye let me go
Leave to a place where I cant see you
Live as you forget me
Even if its you, do it forever..

hey.....

deg deg deg

seneng juga rasanya bisa ngerasain ini lagi
perasaan yg berdegup-degup kesenangan
ga cuma yang mellow mellow saking perihnya

deg deg deg

hahaha

kayaknya makhluk yang satu ini memacu adrenalin saya lagi
bisa ketemu lagi ga ya??

just like another..

just like another piece..
just like another creature..
just like another moment..

came and left..

just like the wind blew..
u felt the breeze and heard the whisper..

then it left the leaves..not even said a good-bye..

first impression

Some people really have a strong first impression. Strong, as in too memorable, like you really can remember the impression that the person has left, even though you will not meet that person anymore.

Once I met a Filipino girl at a bus stop opposite cathedral. Another time I met my mom's friend's son. At that point I know that we all might not meet each other again. I exchanged name and phone number with the girl,but I have not contacted her again. Conversation did happen suddenly in the bus and it's just nice to meet her. While my mom's friend's son,hmm,I don't even know his name. Hahaha.. I know it might sound silly,wkwkwkwkwk,but that moment I really felt that I hope I could meet this person again like what the novel usually told us.hahahaha. And the world looks brighter for till the next one week after the first and last time I met him. *typical fairytale*

Today I met my high school senior (well,he's my junior now..hahahahaha..long story). He's super-annoying,I don't see any points debating with him,but the funny thing is,he reminds me of my classmate back in Indo,who also usually had long debate with me (and also super-annoying).

then I've realized..it's been a long time since the last time I had funny fight with a friend and met annoying person in the context of the person doesn't make me piss-off but in fact,entertaining to certain extend.hahahha..

Another person with a strong first impression can also just be a person I see at the bus stop. Some people really reflect a strong charisma and you just can't forget what they do,how they look,and what they say at the moment.

:)

i dont want to fall asleep

sometimes i just dont want to fall asleep..
coz the gap between being awake and falling asleep gives me chance to think a lot about lots of things that i dont want to think about..

nitez,nda...

idealist vs insane person

according to thefreedictionary.com,

idealist:

1. One whose conduct is influenced by ideals that often conflict with practical considerations.
2. One who is unrealistic and impractical; a visionary.
3. An artist or writer whose work is imbued with idealism.
4. An adherent of any system of philosophical idealism.

insane:

adj.
1.
a. Of, exhibiting, or afflicted with insanity.
b. Characteristic of or associated with persons afflicted with insanity: an insane laugh; insane babbling.
c. Intended for use by such persons: an insane asylum.
2. Immoderate; wild: insane jealousy.
3. Very foolish; absurd: took insane risks behind the wheel.

absurd
adj.
1. Ridiculously incongruous or unreasonable. See Synonyms at foolish.
2. Of, relating to, or manifesting the view that there is no order or value in human life or in the universe.
3. Of or relating to absurdism or the absurd.

Somehow I feel that there's a gray area between being an idealist and being insane.
I THOUGHT i was an idealist, but I thought an idealist can still work realistically,coz what's the point of ebing idealist if you don't know that it can work out?

but,I'm surprised by the definition given by thefreedictionary.com,unrealistic and impractical?am I like that?or I'm just someone without vision that thinks BIG but no philosophy beyond??

am I too naive?
I always compare it to how my mom nvr said that studying in spore is impossible..
it was impossible for me..it looks like sth up there..
but God enabled me to achieve it..

so if even now many ppl say,we can't do this...
am I too insane to say that there's a way to achieve more than this??
why do we always see other people can do better than us but we are stuck here??
is it a mentality problem or am I just insane and unrealistic??

mailing list vs facebook

This is just a random thought,an accumulation of an anger of how many people have been missing from the EARTH since they left Singapore..How many people have been missing for our community's mailing list,but they seem quite active on facebook (which requires more time to load with Indonesia's internet connection).

I thought internet is supposed to ease communication among people. Sometimes I'm not patient to wait for reply because I'm too used to free and accessible internet here in Singapore (except now there's no wireless connection in A block lounge). However, I'm so pissed off when people just disappear and say "ohh sorry...very hard to access internet here" but they still can access facebook weekly!!

It's also ironic because the things that my friends post on mailing list are more important than just a status "ohhh...terrible exam questions" or comment on a photo "ah really?but we are siblings..that's why she resembles me"..and please...the post on the mailing list really asks the members "What do you think of...?" "Can someone help...?" I think it requires more urgent reply than a photo on a facebook album.

I'm not anti-facebook or twitter or anything :)
I'm just a person who is annoyed by the people who are just missing,who have never replied email,and make "no internet connection" as an excuse. *disclaimer: no offend for people who really can't access internet,I had the same experience..this post is only used for WAKING UP people who are too overwhelmed by social networking sites AND neglecting their responsibility. again,if you are social networking sites-addict but you are still responsible,don't feel offended*