to move on

It's been a month since the last time I posted on my blog.
There's something bothering me these days.I'm easily pissed off when a committee or CCA informed me last minute about meeting or 'compulsory' event. I don't why somehow this year I feel that I can't give 100% to the CCAs. Maybe there is a shift of priority? I still want to learn something, I still want to be part of the community, but what is important in my life has changed (I think). That's my hypothesis.

However, I've found that it's still very hard to move on. It's still hard to accept the reality that my year three's workload is heavier, that I shouldn't do too much so I can focus and just do what I want to do. If I do 100%, I believe the committee will also be happy and I might be able to prioritize better.

I guess ego plays a role here. It's very hard to tell myself "It's time to sacrifice something that I love more" or "It's time to sacrifice the 'less' important thing." When I reach my peak period of deadlines,3am sleeping time,crying, my mom always says "Cut down the UNIMPORTANT things" and I reply "but all of them are important" and...she'll reply again "prioritize!" (in indo: "prioritas dong.. Mana yang lebih penting?")

It's really a challenge for me. I think it's not too late to cut down things before the deadlines come and it's too late for me to step back.It's time to move on coz I feel that there's another thing that's more important to me now.Moving on needs courage.

Lord please guide me...
Amen.