April

So here we are in April.

This month reminds me of lots of things. This is a very obvious reminder of how I work as a research assistant for almost a year. One year! Time flies.

I have been looking back for a few times. These few days I have been very very grateful of what has happened the past one year. So grateful that I want to cry because of those good things that have happened in a year.

I remember that the first few months of working, I did not dare to write email updates for my boss. I always try to go through my colleague as much as possible. As our workload has increased, I challenge myself to try to take up this work of writing email updates and contacting the kindergartens.

I remember that I have spent lots of time preparing the ethical review proposal for the elderly project. It was my first time writing IRB proposal from ZERO. I'm quite nervous and excited at the same time that we will start data collection soon after waiting for soooooo long (we thought we could start after Chinese New Year).

The children in the kindergartens are getting more familiar with me. Some N2 kids in a kindergarten love to wave to me and say, "Hello Ninda!" It's such a joy to look at them. Working with children, I must stay cheerful all the time. What a good reminder to have a sense of Divine Filiation. The most vivid memory was when I jokingly asked a kid for a sticker that the teacher gave to him. And he gave the sticker to me! How generous kids are.

I am looking at the friendships that have been nurtured the past year. Recruiting members is a tough thing this year, but looking at the spiritual growth of each Legion of Mary member and the friendship that we have, I feel that we grow deeper and deeper. I am looking at the "coincidence" (aka. God's plan) of the friendships that God has given me the past one year. It was just so beautiful. Yesterday Sharmini came to Singapore and I did say that this was such a beautiful Easter gift. Recently I have passed my old house at Serangoon and my mind fly to the time I had with Ci Yaya, Frank, and Jas in that house. I only stayed there for four months and this is enough to make me see how God has a great plan by making us meet each other. I have also observed how my friendship with my colleagues has been growing. Yesterday I found out how my colleague's desire to have a 4-working-day has given me chance to work 5 days. It's interesting how our path crosses each other.

I am looking at the journey to discover my vocation too. I still remember that very morning when I was praying after Mass at Blessed Sacrament Church and I wrote in my prayer book the sentence that Our Lady said, "Lord, be it done unto me according to Thy word." This fiat can be tough at times, but to see how God has always guided me the past one year, and let me see one thing after another, there's nothing I can say but "Thank You, Lord", for letting me see, for teaching how to keep saying "Yes".

I'm quite nervous, for the fact that some uncertainties have disturbed me a bit (again). However, I have faith in Him. He will show me the way. My mom keeps saying, "You will find the way."